seryosong post toh...hehehe....

For the past couple of weeks, I've been trying to follow this reality show in star world in search of "the scholar". For those unfamiliar with the show, there are 10 students selected across US vying for full scholarship at a university of their choice. Each week, the participants are divided into 2 groups and they perform certain tasks (similar to 'the apprentice') and from this, the judges choose 3 students who performed best in that task and these 3 will battle it out through a quiz showdown on a specific subject/topic. Whoever wins in this quiz automatically receives 50 grand worth of scholarship plus a chance to compete in the final round where the full scholarship is at stake. During the first few episodes, I was actually rooting for Max (the guy with dreadlocks)--not for academic achievement though but simply because of good looks! hehehe... they are, anyway, all intellectually superior given that they were selected to join the said reality show! Anyways, I just finished watching the season-ender episode and I just couldn't help but feel moved by these kids' aspirations. I dunno, I guess it just brought a lot of vision and hope that I had back then, before I was thrown into an ocean full of poverty, corruption and malevolence called life...It amazes me, how, at a young age, they can dream of finding the cure for cancer, changing the world, making a difference and touching lives. I couldn't help but search within myself the dreams that I had back then and reassess how far I have gone to realize these dreams. Sadly, I only have my college degree and almost 4 years of work experience to boot. I know I should be thankful for accomplishing these and reaching this far, but then again, somewhere deep within me, there is still that yearning to achieve bigger things, things that will touch lives and give back to my community. I also started wondering where all the cynicism is coming from. Was it brought by age? by the society we live in? or was I just scarred too much by experience that I no longer see the beauty of life in simple things and believe in man's innate kindness?

I'm not sure whether I can still realize my dreams in the next couple of years but for now, I can only hope that these kids keep the flame burning in their hearts to make this world a better place to live in--if not me, at least other people can make my dream a reality.