Last night, I was on the verge of telling K (my own version of D! hehehe) how I felt 5 years ago and how that has resurfaced just recently…good thing that my better judgment overruled…What was I thinking then? I don’t know…probably it was just hormonal imbalance or sumtin…I thought that if I just let it all out, it’s gonna be a make or break for us…so I asked myself, am I really, really ready for the worst thing that could happen? I mean, I’ve waited for like five long years for this, should I just ruin everything by meddling with the course of fate and taking things into my own hands? The lines in the movie “A Lot Like Love” also came to mind while I was thinking things over –“Stop-or you’ll ruin it”…It’s not one of those super mushy lines that we usually hear in romantic films but its message is clear…sometimes, we just have to let things happen as they should for it to blossom into something beautiful…I guess that’s what I need to do right now…just take things as they are without expectations and see where the road leads us…
I was going through an old organizer last weekend when I saw a copy of one of my favorite poems back then...I got this from one of those college journals published under an anonymous author...
UNSPOKEN
You came into my life
quietly, simply
and the world stood still
I couldn't say a word
not even a simple gesture showed
so I loved you in silence,
worshipped you in a distance,
dreamt of you from afar.
The feeling was kept in my heart
I wanted to say I love you
I wanted you to know I care
but I became afraid,
afraid that you'll laugh at me.
In silence then I cared
coz in silence I found
the fulfillment of my
unspoken love...
posted by -sH!rLs- @ 6:56:00 PM
4 Comments:
I don't know but somehow when you are under the spell of unrequited love you do feel this suntok-sa-buwan moments that you want to do something. Like a pounding thought.
may naisip akong kanta ng APC diyan. it's called 2 libras.
"threw you the obvious
and you flew with it on your back.
a name in your recollection
down among a million same.
difficult enough to feel a little bit
disappointed, passed over.
when I've looked right through,
to see you naked and oblivious."
says it all eh?
and you don't see me
Last night, I was on the verge of telling somebody I really like that... well, I really like her. But alas, my life is not as simple as some people might think. It's a whole lot more complicated than that.
I'm thinking what the consequences would be if I had done it. It would be so unfair for everybody involved except for me, I think. Most importantly, it would be unfair to her. For what would happen next? What could possibly happen next? See, I am married. With 2 wonderful kids. So what could I possibly hope to happen by admitting my feelings for her?
Was it just one of those suntok-sa-buwan moments when you feel like doing something, then bahala na si batman kung anong mangyari afterwards? :-/
pero shirls, hangggang kelan ka maghihintay?
napaghahalata tuloy na mababa EQ ko. pero pag sa tingn ko walang maa-agrabyado, i'll go for it and tell him. of course you should be prepared kung ano consequences. iba naman sitwasyon natin sitwasyon ng lolo JR mo though...
rots
so true meli! but then again, those pounding thoughts din minsan lead us to do things that we might regret in the end..
roch, in my case naman kc, it's more of not being ready just yet to face the consequences if and when I decide to tell him how I feel..medjo nag eenjoy pa kc ko with the way things are right now between us..masaya ung mga kakiligan and i dont wanna ruin it by saying something that might change everything (for worse
-shirls
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