petiks mode

hehehe...for the life of me...it's 4:16 and the only productive thing I've done for the day is update the MS Project with my time charges...still feeling lazy I guess after that long trip from la union to manila (we arrived around 3 this morning)...I accompanied my mom to the Our Lady of Manaoag church in Pangasinan last weekend and went straight to La Union to visit my Aunt, cousins and a dozen pamangkins...grabeh, how time flies...I've been spending summers in La Union since I was 3 and medjo natigil lang when my uncle died a few years back...I used to be the youngest in the family back then, ngayon andami ng pamangkin!!! 2 years ago pa ung last visit ko so most of them were still young, pero ngayon, ang kukulit na sobra...it's nice coz most of my nieces and nephews are really sweet...all of them were ecstatic to see me...hayy...that's probably one reason why my mom is prodding me to get married na...she's crazy about her grandchildren and can't wait to have her own! yikes! scary thought! as much as I love kids, I just can't imagine myself having one just yet...not even getting married! don't get me wrong, maybe someday, someone will make me fall head over heels in love and would make me want to get married and have children, pero definitely not now...not when I'm having the time of my life being single and enjoying every minute of it! well yes, there are times when I wish I had that special someone to cuddle with or hold hands with, pero not in the "married" kind of setting...that's just too much for me right now...eh sa sarili ko nga hirap akong magbudget ng time and money eh, un pa kayang meron ka ng ibang buhay na aalagaan...unfair for me, and most definitely unfair to soon-to-be-husband-and-kids...hehehe...i dunno, i think it was 2 years ago when I came to a decision that if and when I get married, gusto ko ayos na muna lahat...secured na ung future ng mom and dad ko kahit hindi na sila magtrabaho, stable na din ako hopefully with my own house and car para whatever happens to the marriage, kaya kong buhayin sarili ko...hehehehe...ampangit coz it sounds like I'm already expecting the marriage to fail but for me it's just preparing for the worst...mahirap na noh! I've heard about women losing their identity after marriage and become too dependent sa husbands nila tapos pag nagkahiwalay na, they find it difficult to stand on their own...I wouldn't want that to happen to me...hehehe...anubaitu...mashadong advanced thinking na kaagad! sana magkaboyfriend muna ko diba??!!

Oh well, sobrang enjoy makipag kulitan sa mga pamangkin ko...kahit medjo sumakit ulo ko sa ingay nila, I know that the time I spent with them while I was there was priceless! Patrick (only 2 years old) broke my heart when he cried before we left :( His mom (ate sheila) kc is in the US right now and ever since, lagi na nilang sinasabing magkamuka kami...Poor kid, he thought I was his mom he even called me mommy :( hayy...I wish I could stay longer kaso di na talaga pwede...he would constantly embrace me and kiss me and follow me wherever I go :( awwww...namiss ko tuloy sha bigla :( even Jarod, Aldrin and Brylle, kahit sobrang kulit, were such sweeties! I think I should go there more often to spend time with these kids! They're just simply adorable :(

shempre walang coherence ung pagtype ko diba?! kung ano na lang maisip ilagay, cge type! hehehe... Hirap talaga pag walang magawa....hayy....