Gaad!!! I am so damn bored!!!! I can’t think of anything else to do because I had to switch schedules of conference calls with my friggin teammate (same person I was referring to in my previous post) coz he won’t be available tomorrow…crap…oh well, I decided to write about my dream last night about Third…yep, for some weird reason, I dreamt about him even though I hadn’t thought about him for the longest time now…he must still be residing somewhere in the deep corners of my mind…oh well, on with my story…I got back from US and received a call from him…he was asking me to watch a concert of a certain local band (forgot about the name of the group) … I don’t know what got into me that I agreed…so ayun…next scene, I was with my family pa nga daw and hinatid nila ko to meet Third…kakaiba talaga…he met my mom and my dad…tapos close na sila ha! Nagbilin pa ung dad ko sa kanya before kami umalis…tapos he was so kind sa mom ko…if I remember correctly, nagbless pa sha sa kanilang 2…tapos un, eh di umalis na kami…there was this one stranger that we met along the way and he introduced me… “asawa ko…” tapos I was teasing him, “yeah right, asawa ka jan!” tapos he just smiled…hay…tapos nun we just kept walking, and once in a while I would hold him sa waist…parang naka-embrace or something…tapos when we were at the concert hall na, I kinda lost him in the crowd for a while, tapos nakita ko din naman ulit sha…tapos we were together na ulit…(I just realized that it somehow reflects the kind of relationship that we had before??!!) and then after that scene, the succeeding scene was at their house na (oh daba, kakaiba talaga??!!) tapos his mom was there din at close na sila ng mom ko ha! Parang may occasion sa house nila and my parents were there din…ewan…it ended there coz I woke up na…hayy…I wonder what that dream is trying to tell me…that I still love third? That deep inside of me it’s still him all along that I wanted to be with? I honestly don’t know…siguro madami lang unanswered questions that up till now remained as it is, unanswered…walang closure kumbaga…I would have easily let him go kung malinaw sa kin lahat before we parted ways…pero hindi eh…he left me hanging…the least he could have done was be honest with me...and that just sucks big time…hanggang ngayon tuloy andaming what if’s and could-have-been’s and it continues to haunt me…hayy…I just really need a closure I guess…I’m not really after us picking where we left off na eh…Mas ok pa nga siguro if we become friends na lang ulit…mas namimiss ko ung friendship namin more than anything…I just hope he could hear me now….hayy…

I like this new song by imago...the title is Taning...for some reason, I just like it:

Sa'n mapupulot ang pag-asa
may katuwiran ba ang sala
ngiti ko ang iyong galak
langit ko ang iyong kandungan

Permiso sa isang araw na makasama ka
abiso ng pusong bulag na humahanga

Tama bang aminin na nating may taning
tong pag-ibig natin
dakila man walang kasaysayang kakapit
sa bulag na pag-ibig

Sa'n hihingi ng patawad
kung walang dalang dahilan
tangis ko ang iyong pagluha
nais ko ang iyong kalayaan

Permiso sa isang araw na makasama ka
abiso ng pusong bulag na humahanga

Tama bang aminin na nating may taning
tong pag-ibig natin
dakila man walang kasaysayang kakapit
sa bulag na pag-ibig

Tama bang aminin na nating may taning
tong pag-ibig natindakila man walang kasaysayang kakapit
sa bulag na pag-ibig
Permiso sa isang araw na makasama ka
abiso ng pusong bulag na humahanga

tama bang aminin na nating may taning..........